One of the reasons I started this second blog was that I feel a little out of sorts with myself and I’m hoping that if I make regular entries here it will help me take stock of my life and improve my mental state and attitudes.
Among many other things, I worry that I’m overly negative at the moment. The recent change in government and the way it’s come about is certainly something that concerns me, particularly in light of problems with the world economy that we’ve seen in the past couple of years. I worry for our future and that of our kids and grandkids. But while this is understandable and perfectly natural for anyone who cares about the people they love and for people in general, there is more in the mix of why I’m feeling the way I do.
In part there is still the memory of my mother passing away last year, which affected me more deeply than I ever expected it would. Not only do I miss her greatly, her passing feels like a reminder of my own mortality. It’s not like I’m becoming obsessed by this, but I’m certainly thinking about it more than I did.
My health, too, is a reminder that I’m no longer the spring chicken I once was. Although I’m in much better health than many people, even within my own family, sometimes I can be stopped in my tracks. For instance, I regularly have times where I suddenly feel very weak and shaky, but I’ve been to the doctor, had tests and they can find nothing that explains it. This, of course, makes it worse – how do I deal with a problem when I can’t even get a handle on what that problem is?
So you see where I’m coming from, I hope. I musst admit that I was tempted to delete the above and start again, but it really does nail down why I’m setting out with this blog at all.
What I don’t want from readers is for the responses to be overly sympathetic, please. Be understanding and constructive in your comments and thoughts and share your own similar tales, but I’m hoping to climb up and not spiral down.
Thanks for your time.